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Circadian two-step

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Early to bed and early to rise… makes a neurodivergent irritable as hell!

On Sunday (January 5) I was presented with a unique opportunity. A heavy winter storm was approaching the area, so to be safe, my workplace announced it would be closed on Monday (January 6). But in order to make sure everyone gets their forty hours of work this week, everyone would be working ten hour days for Tuesday through Friday. I wasn’t very happy about this, but there wasn’t much I could do beyond complain. And that wasn’t likely to get any useful results, so I didn’t bother.

However, since I had absolutely no schedule for Monday, I decided to do an experiment and let my body go to bed when it was ready to, and get up when it was ready. My mind seems to be most productive, and most focused, between the hours of 4pm and 9pm. And I have often joked that if left to my own devices I would stay up until the wee hours of the morning, sleep until around noon, and work my job from mid-afternoon until mid to late evening.

I ended up turning out the light around 3:00am last night, and got up around 11:30am today. It would seem that my circadian rhythm is that of a night owl, which didn’t surprise me in the least. I became a night owl in college, and have largely remained one ever since.

A quick internet search pulled up a number of studies that connect ADHD (and other neurodivergent conditions) with circadian rhythms that don’t neatly align with the rise and fall of the sun. Many of them correlate to chemical patterns in the brain and nervous systems that effect sleep patterns. People with ADHD, for example, often stay up later than most, often because it’s difficult for their minds to quiet down until the body is completely exhausted. Some more severe conditions can lead to insomnia, or at the other extreme, narcolepsy. Lisa and I sometimes joke that we have trouble falling asleep because “our brain won’t shut up.” Chemistry in action!

But does this correlation between late-leaning circadian rhythms and neurodivergency suggest a causation? That’s an interesting question, and is a subject of ongoing research. I tried to come up with an explanation, but none of my ideas held together. Conventional wisdom says that one can train their circadian rhythms to conform to one schedule or another by strictly adhering to a specific time schedule for a prolonged period of time. Many people have been able to achieve this, especially those who work at night. But this has not been my personal experience. I generally get up at 5:30am to be at work for 7:00am, and most of the time I have little difficulty. But when the weekend arrives, and I am temporarily free of the timetable, I instantly revert to staying up very late (on Friday and Saturday) and sleeping late (on Saturday and Sunday). One would think that after several months of this strict weekday schedule, my body would remain on that schedule all the time. Instead, if given the opportunity, my body instantly snaps back to the “night owl” schedule I had back in college. I am therefore inclined to think that neurodivergency does have a causation effect on the circadian cycle, but I suspect it would be difficult to demonstrate.

I’m going to leave that to the psychiatrists, neurophysicists, and other experts on the workings of the brain.

Because of my night owl tendencies, I have considered moving to the second shift at my workplace. It would be more in line with my apparent circadian rhythms, and one day I may make such a switch. However, such a change would cause schedule conflicts with almost every other aspect of my life, and of society in general. One problem that I have noticed is that contemporary society, especially in the United States, is designed around “morning people.” This is the result of historical patterns based on agricultural schedules. Getting up early is imperative when you work on a farm, and for a long time that was the overwhelming majority of the nation’s population. That’s not the case anymore, but the pattern remains. When I try to schedule an appointment or official visit, the first suggested times are invariably early in the day. For someone who is naturally a night person, this is annoying. I often have to push for a later time, and sometimes I meet resistance. It’s not something that makes me overly angry or upset, but I do find it irritating. Like a mosquito bite.

This upcoming work week is likely to be difficult for me. I’ll have to be at work at 5:00am, and work until 3:30pm. Getting into work that early, and then putting in a ten hour day, is going to be a challenge. I suspect my whole metabolism, and not just my circadian rhythms, will be very unhappy by Friday afternoon.

What do you readers think about this? If you are part of the neurodivergent crowd, are you a night owl? Or an afternoon cruiser? Have you been able to train your circadian rhythms to follow something different than their natural inclination?

Image from Shutterstock.

Danger: 2025

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More on the overhaul, and what the future may hold.

To quote a famous frog, “Looks like we’ve come to the end of another one!”

As I said earlier, I’m giving this site a complete overhaul. Why? Because I want to level up my blog game. I know that I have said, many times, that I was going to make this blog more active. And so far I have generally failed to do so. But once again I am going to make the attempt. But this time something is different. This year I feel that I’m in a different head-space. I actually feel that I can make a difference, however small, and more importantly I feel that I must try. I just have to keep with it. I’ve been setting up a schedule for posting and editing, and so far I think I can work with it. Why am I in a different head-space this year? There are several possible factors, but that absolute dumpster fire of an election in November was probably the final push. A lot of things in this world need to change.

What is changing on this site? Again, most of the changes will be invisible to visitors, as they are focused on web maintenance, enabling RSS features, and security issues. One thing that has been mentioned to me has been the insecure nature of the site. My first task was to speak with my internet service provider, Ionos, and rectify this. The site now has a secure certificate to keep black hats at a distance.

I have also worked out a few kinks related to the RSS feed, so that folks who use this feature should find it a smoother ride. Near the bottom of the meta tag area in the sidebar, are the options “entries feed” and “comments feed.” Those are the RSS links, and tests have gone well. I will confess that I don’t fully understand how RSS feeds work, as I’ve never made much use of them. But that’s my problem.

I’ve enabled some sharing options for those who like to share stuff on Facebook, Pinterest, and the like. The icons appear at the bottom of each post, right above the index keywords. My own use of social media is sporadic, so I’ve only enabled a few of the major ones. I suspect I’ll be tinkering with this one a bit. If someone brings a specific platform to my attention, I’ll look into it.

The next thing I’m going to look into is finding some sponsors. I recently read some articles by professional blogger Taylor Stanford about how to do things like this. She apparently has managed to turn her blog into a thriving business that pulls in several thousand dollars a month. That’s very encouraging, and it would be nice. But realistically, my aspirations are far more modest. I’ll consider this effort successful it I’m able to offset the costs of maintaining the web presence and email service my family uses. Which isn’t that expensive, all things considered. We’ll see how that goes.

Now, regarding the content of this site. I still want to address issues that relate to neurodivergent folks, more now than ever. The more I scoot around the net, the more I read about people who are part of this misunderstood club. If I can be of some help to these folks, and/or the people in their lives, that would be great.

My current plan is to make the neurodivergent stuff the main attraction, but I will also include some lighter stuff. News related to my family, especially places we visit, will certainly show up. I find those fun to write, especially if the location is esoteric and not well known. I will also have the occasional foray into computer stuff, some more space exploration tidbits, and perhaps even some contraptions from my infamous Erector set.

What I will not include, if I can help it, is political stuff. I don’t feel that political ranting is appropriate for this site any more. In recent years politics has forced itself to the front and center of many people’s lives, and it’s not pleasant! I won’t be adding to the glut of web-based political commentary, at least not here, unless the topic relates directly to neurodivergency. I’ve archived the bulk of my political essays, so if you go looking for one you aren’t likely to find it. I’ll restore them if they are requested, but otherwise they are staying in deep storage. I may have also found a different forum for political ranting, should it ever be necessary for me to do so.

In closing, I have to say that my outlook for 2025 is very guarded. Some frightening changes are approaching, and you probably know what I’m referring to. Namely, a certain “project.” I won’t go into specifics. But I’m very concerned about the effects it may have on those of us who see the world through a slightly different lens.

There are dangerous roads ahead.

The header image came from Shutterstock, though I tweaked it within an inch of its life.

Renovation 2025

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Pardon our dust.

This site is currently undergoing an overhaul to accommodate some new ideas and features. Visitors aren’t likely to notice much of a difference, as most of these changes are back-end related settings. Some content has been removed, as I no longer feel it appropriate to this type of site. I will explain more later, after I’m done wrestling with some configuration files.

Unix. Gotta love it.

Hoboken bound

Time files, weather you’re having fun or not!

I feel very old, but also very proud.

Xander has graduated from Eastern View High School in Culpeper, Virginia, and is preparing to go to college. I have to think about that for a moment. There are dozens of cliché sayings about how time passes at one speed for adults, another for children, and dilates and compresses at will when attempts are made to synchronize them. But no matter how you look at it, the baby I carried home from Adventist hospital in Takoma Park, Maryland, back in 2006, is now eighteen, out of high school, and preparing to go to college.

They’ve had to deal with all of the usual growth issues, and some unusual ones. Such as managing friendships, dealing with difficult classmates, and even more difficult teachers! They’ve dealt with cyberbullies, duplicitous fair-weather classmates, emotional abuse from specific adults, the loneliness and isolation of the COVID-19 pandemic, dysphoria issues, the difficult decision to undergo hormone adjustment, and even the decision to legally change their name. Worst of all was the tragic death of their younger brother. Having a front row seat to my gradual mental breakdown probably wasn’t fun either. But even so, Xander managed to slog through all of that.

High school, and the teen years in general, are usually a rough ride for everyone. I remember dealing with a variety of issues back in that toxic swamp I called high school. I drew on my experience as best as I could to help guide Xander through that mass of brambles. I can honestly say that Xander handled things better than I would have. Xander is far more mature, and seems better adjusted than I was at that age. And they clearly have more raw intelligence than I ever had.

Later this year, Xander will begin college at the Stevens Institute of Technology in Hoboken, New Jersey. They plan to focus on software engineering, with perhaps minor in technical theater. They already have some high level certifications in cybersecurity and computer network administration (thank you, CTEC), and with near perfect grades, they have a very solid start.

Life can be crazy, and often times things don’t turn out right. But Xander is one thing that did turn out right. To say that I am proud of Xander would be a tremendous understatement.

Footnote: Washington Adventist Hospital of Takoma Park re-located to larger facility in nearby White Oak, back in 2019.

Photo credits: photos one and two were taken by Lisa Pugh on May 15 and May 18, 2024, respectively. The third photo was taken by me on May 26, 2024. Most colleges send a letter of congratulations when accepting a student, but Stevens sent a placard! Go figure.